When I first began to ponder this week’s challenge from Kim (our fearless leader), I thought – this doesn’t apply to me. I’m typically the knight with the sword facing all challenges. While I enjoy pleasing my family and friends(and truly appreciate all compliments), I don’t necessarily need their pat on the back to feel good about an accomplishment – they can agree with me or choose to be wrong – it’s up to them (HA!).
I’m not saying there haven’t been challenges, but I generally try to take them head on -just saying, passive is not my middle name.
But then…….a little thought crept in to my overly confident mindset…. and I must say that maybe Kim’s challenge did snag an itty bitty thread – dare I tug???
My fear has nothing to do with creativity, but it has affected my life – somewhat…I hate, hate, hate, avoid at all costs….being in groups of people. My husband has to drag me to cocktail parties, I can’t imagine the thought of joining a book club (even though I read more than anyone I know). I once bribed another mother to make an announcement to our kid’s 4th grade class – I was the lead room mother – yes, I am that afraid of speaking in front of a group. At parties, I just know I’m so horribly boring that no one will want to talk to me and I threaten my husband with severe pain should he leave my side – he can’t consume too many liquids :-) I think I’ve made my point – and isn’t it ridiculous? I can talk to strangers until they’re backing up to get away from me (not really, but almost) – but in situations where I would hope to have approval – nope, tight lipped and timid.
Okay, enough – I found something, and no I haven’t changed. I have joined an investment club – but we don’t talk much :-)